I'm actually ok

These days, I'm actually ok. For the first time in quite a while, I look forward to working. To coming home. To doing things. I have taken up photography again. I'm reading, writing. I'm living again for the first time in so long. SO long.

I have the prospect of a 3 week holiday in a few weeks and hopefully some great vacations in there. I have (once again) realized that there are nice guys out there.

Most of them are straight though... but it's comforting to know that there are some nice ones, right?

I have a lot of work to do, but I'm actually ok with it. I haven't had a holiday week since Christmas, but it's not like I'm completely overworked... weird. I'm kind of growing into my life these days. It's a very interesting feeling. I'll try to keep you updated on my inadvertedly growing up. It's just happening :P

Lyrics of the day:

Rows and floes of angel hair

And ice cream castles in the air

And feather canyons evrywhere

Ive looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun

They rain and snow on evryone

So many things I would have done

But clouds got in my way

Ive looked at clouds from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow

Its cloud illusions I recall

I really dont know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels

The dizzy dancing way you feel

As evry fairy tale comes real

Ive looked at love that way

But now its just another show

You leave em laughing when you go

And if you care, dont let them know

Dont give yourself away

Ive looked at love from both sides now

From give and take, and still somehow

Its loves illusions I recall

I really dont know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud

To say I love you right out loud

Dreams and schemes and circus crowds

Ive looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange

They shake their heads, they say Ive changed

Well somethings lost, but somethings gained

In living evry day

Ive looked at life from both sides now

From win and lose and still somehow

Its lifes illusions I recall

I really dont know life at all

Ive looked at life from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow

Its lifes illusions I recall

I really dont know life at all